Fourth Note

Waking up in the morning, but snoozing over and over til I only have little less than an hour to get ready before I go to the Job Center. I was supposed to have answered a few questions in this questionnaire about my current situation as unemployed and my plan to get out of it, but I simply hadn't. When I get to the meeting I get to know it wasn't that necessary, just as long as I have a plan in my head that they can write into their puters. I leave after about an hour going to the library returning four books and a cd. After that I join my friend Ulrika and two of her work mates to lunch. I eat a burger and some fries, while acting slightly silly with Mirhad one of the work mates. After lunch I go home, and after a while Eva a friend of mine asks me if I want to join her to Valbo, a place which can be hell on earth, to buy clothes which she is going to wear that night when she's going out. While she is trying out clothes I see myself in a mirror and realise that I have a beautiful face and really, I need to excersize. I need to get in shape. Ultimately making a decision that from now on I've got to live healthier. When Eva has found herself a pair of jeans, a bra and other few make up things we get back home. I watch her getting ready to go out, then I go home.
Anyway, when I get home I basically do nothing but argue with my parents, eat and watch TV. Nurse Betty with Renee Zellwegger is on. It is OK, a three out of six. I get a tad bit nervous when I sit there doing nothing so I go upstairs and get my puter out because I feel the need to do something. I check messages and read Kevin Smith's blog. I get that tingle that you get when inspiration is upon you. Kevin is a man in the middle of the glitz so many want, but with his feet steady on the ground. I consider going upstairs to watch Jersey Girl or Chasing Amy on DVD and fall asleep. Everything just kind of sucks. I so want to start doing something of myself, want to become something. Monday will be great, I'll work then.

Current song Alan Jackson & Jimmy Buffet "It's Five O'Clock Somewhere"
Current film Jersey Girl
Current wish...to learn how to use my talent and wish to write.