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Eighth note

Alright. I promised you a post where I could have to make promises that I would have to keep. Sort of.

Anyway, these are the things I've thought of for the past few weeks.

What I want to do with my life is this...

I want to make music, if not for the world then for me. Kind of like EPs with a few different songs that I have written myself and a few covers. Just for the fun of it I'd try to see how many would buy an EP or two.

I want to have written, and published, at least three books before I've died. One that is a novel, one with short stories and one that should be a surprise for myself and you.

I want to do have done a few short films and one, maybe two, longer films. No genre in specific, but the stories has to be mine.

I want to make a few plays for theatre that are based on my own writing and then direct it too.

I want to act, and get good reviews for my acting.

I want to have a few simple concerts, with friends on stage and an audience that really care to be there.

I want to have done a few nude photos, not necessarily for public viewing. But for me to look at and see that I can actually be as beautiful as many of those women I feel are incredibly beautiful. Like Jennifer Lopez, Marilyn Monroe, Madonna, Monica Belluci...I think you get where I am going with this. What is important though, is that I feel comfortable doing them.

I want to have traveled to meet people and write their stories down.

I want to have worked abroad with things as different as media, volounteer working and some of my own work that would be arts.

I want to have my art shown in a big gallery.

I want to make peace with my past so that I can live in the now not being stressed about the future.

I want to have worked so that childrens and human issues are taken seriously.

I want to have done one stand-up comedy show.

I want to make children know that there will always be someone there to care for them, make them feel safe.

I want to have fullfilled my education as a massagetherapist and the filmscience class I took years ago.

I want to have a drivers licence, a home of my own and someone to love.

I want to have met Madonna, Kevin Smith and the Askewniverse family, most of the people I've bumped into online, Sofia Coppola, Scarlett Johansson, Bill Murray, Paris Hilton, Jennifer Lopez, Eminem, Vince Vaughan, Will Ferrel, the Gyllenhaals, Denis Leary, Michael Moore, the Bushes, Hugh Hefner, Pamela Anderson, Kylie Minogue, Anthony Bourdain, Jamie Oliver, Oprah Winfrey, God and the Love of My Life and YOU.
There are probably people on here I'll regret putting up here or people I forgot. Adding is however not so hard to do.

I want to have lost weight and be healthy.

I want to heal and fullfill myself and become as happy as it is humanly possible.

I want to settle down and have kids. Doing it all, changing diapers, taking care of them when they are sick, driving them to school, traveling with them and making them feel ultra hyper super special. Loving them with every breath in me.

I want to get married with the right people.

I want to forgive myself for all the mistakes that I've done.

I want to learn.

In the end. I know there is a whole lot of work for me to do since I've made all of these wishes. But I am ready to do it and I will dare.


Have a Happy New Year.

Emma

Current Song: Madonna's Push.
Current Film: Clerks by Kevin Smith